A Spoken Word

The past 12+ months Billy and I have been on another journey with our fertility doctor in hopes of baby bird #2. Going down this road for the second time in one way was easier because we have our blessing, Lilly Rose, to keep me distracted. On the other hand my heart ached so deeply in a different way. I yearned for another baby like I've yearned before but this time I wanted it not just for Billy and I, but for Lilly Rose as well. The deep emotions felt with infertility are raw, painful and a gut wrenching ache. It's a HARD time when you cannot shake the desire and treatments are not working. Through this time and after several failed cycles I tried to come to a place of peace if we were meant to be a family of three. A tough pill to swallow.

On our final attempt (we agreed to a certain number of tries before ending this journey), I felt weary. It's rare I like a bath (I've never been a bath girl) but on a particular night during our final 2 week wait (the two weeks you wait after treatment to find out if it worked) I decided a hot bath, candles and quietness was necessary. After feeling relaxed I laid in bed in a quiet house. Billy was working and Lilly Rose was asleep. It's also rare the house is quiet. Usually I use my free mama time to catch up on my favorite shows (umm Isn't Shonda Rhimes on fire, Scandal is so good!). While laying there I prayed asking God to prepare my heart if this cycle fails. Thanking Him for all He's done, I know there's a purpose for all of it. While I was sharing my heart I heard God speak, loud and clear. Genesis 4. I continued praying and ignored the voice thinking it was odd scripture to hear for what we are going through. Brooke, genesis 4. I finally listen. I'm so stubborn. I grabbed my Bible off the night stand.

Genesis 4:1 

And Adam knew Eve his wife; and she conceived, and bare Cain, and said, I have gotten a man from the LORD.

She conceived! I about dropped my Bible. Thank you God for the encouragement I needed to hear! I believe with all my heart God told me in that moment Billy and I would have another baby. I wasn't sure if that meant this particular cycle, but I knew He was promising us another baby. Do you know what happened a few days later? Our pregnancy test was positive! What an amazing sight to see a positive test after so many negatives thrown away in disappointment. How awesome is God!?! I'm so excited to have the God of the universe speak to me. All I need to do is slow down. Turn everything off and just listen!!! 

A couple days later we had blood work confirming we were indeed pregnant and then on my mamas Birthday, November 25th, we got the surprise of our lives. It's twins!! Still, months later, shocked but so thankful God saw us fit to bless us with 3 children knowing it was our hearts desire from the start.

I am thrilled to share that our sweet miracle is going to be a big sister! We have a baby BOY and GIRL on the way this summer. My heart is so very full!!!! Thank you, Jesus